I am a fixer. When something is broken, I want to fix it. Messy situations call to me like a sirens’ song to a ship. I want to jump in and help but sometimes I find myself frustrated and overwhelmed by the rocks of reality and the lack of my resources. Conflict makes me uncomfortable and angry disagreements make me uneasy. I wish the world could find a way to live in peace, love, and harmony, like pretty boats sailing on calm, happy seas at a beautiful sunset. (I know, I am a dreamer.)
There seems to be a lot a whole lot of broken lately. A lot of things that need fixing and many jagged rocks to be snared upon. From world wide issues to individual interactions and attitudes, I have been watching and listening, reading and thinking. I have been praying and I have been trying to explain and solve situations and circumstances that are completely out of my control. When I find myself tired and heading for the rocks of burden and frustration, I need to steer my ship in a different direction.
If I had unlimited resources and ultimate power, I would drill wells for clean water, make sure each person had a roof over their heads, clothes on their backs, shoes on their feet, and food in their bellies. I would find each orphan a home. If I had the power to take away all brokenness, fear, and the hurt, I would. I would cure cancer and all other diseases that destroy and take people away too soon. I would mend and heal broken relationships and anything else that cause physical pain, shattered lives, and futures that seem hopeless and scary.
But I do not have that power, I am not God (and a good thing too. I would royally mess things up.) I cannot see the whole span of time or His divine plan. I cannot see how God orchestrates divine interventions of people crossing paths and circumstances that allow people opportunities to grow in their faith and love. I cannot see the finest details or understand how harden hearts soften or how darkness turns to light through the smallest miracles and touches of love found in the most perilous of storms.
I am limited but I serve and love a unlimited God. When I start feeling overwhelmed and the need to fix things, or more accurately the need to control things, I am better off leaving those things in the hands of God and trusting in His divine purpose and plan. Trusting He will provide.
Yes, I can be the hands and feet of Jesus. I will still reach out, walk alongside, and love the hungry, the thirsty, the sick, the widows, the orphans, and the lost. BUT I will not get overwhelmed trying fix the unlimited number of problems that exist or get frustrated with my lack of resources to fix them. God has ultimate control, the power, and all the resources necessary. He is watching and listening. God hears the cries of our earnest hearts. He hears and listens and because He listens, I can be calm, hear and listen too.
In the book of Malachi, chapter 3, Malachi points out different groups of people- the complainers and the believers. The complainers (Malachi 3:13-15) felt as though they were serving and not getting anywhere. They were grumpy, frustrated and could not see the rewards of their faithful service. In their eyes, their world was getting worse and they did not like not having the ultimate control to fix it.
The believers, the faithful remnant (Malachi 3:16-18,) found themselves surrounded by the same circumstances but they remained faithful to God by fearing the Lord and His plans. The believers met together to edify and encourage each other, to worship God. They held God high in awe. They did not try to control the situations, they did not complain, they spoke to each other about the Lord and His truths. God paid attention to them. He paid attention to their words and the way they served in gladness.
16 Then those who feared the Lord spoke with one another. The Lord paid attention and heard them, and a book of remembrance was written before him of those who feared the Lord and esteemed his name. 17 “They shall be mine, says the Lord of hosts, in the day when I make up my treasured possession, and I will spare them as a man spares his son who serves him. 18 Then once more you shall see the distinction between the righteous and the wicked, between one who serves God and one who does not serve him.
Malachi 3:16-18 English Standard Version (ESV)
When faced with situations that need repair, I can remember the faithful remnant and their example of servitude in gladness. When I feel helpless or overwhelmed, I can pray in full confidence knowing God hears my prayers and he remembers me. I can remember that I am a treasured possession, like a jewel, beautiful, unique and precious. I can recall my own sufferings, trials, and God’s faithfulness to me and use those past experiences to have compassion and help another person. I can surround myself with a cloud of joyful, glad witnesses who can speak truth and encouragement to me. And I can trust, I can trust that the Lord sees the horizon and all the storms in between. He has the resources necessary and in His strength and for His glory, He will provide.
Be encouraged! Keep sailing your ship forward, diverting the rocks and learning from the storms. Pick up those who have been shipwrecked, help where you can but do not be burdened. Trust that God has you in the right place at the right time, it will be He who gives you want you need and it will be God who completely restores those in need. Fill your sails with prayers and thanksgiving, and enjoy the views as the Lord gently guides you in the right direction through life.